Deep down I can still feel the pain
Of your absence 
That’s hidden behind my face

Deep down I can feel
How I’m slowly dying
Waiting to become dirt 
And nothing more

Deep down I’m slowly bleeding out
Internally from my once beating heart

The blood runs thick and deep
Down into my lungs
Making it hard to breathe

My face begins to constrict
And soft pleads escape my throat
Then tears begin to form

Its bitter sweet the way I’m going to end








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05/08/2013

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As the years go by I still can’t forget your face
The way you made me smile or the way you used to taste
My tongue wont let you go not after all the sweetness you’ve left behind
I still feel your hand on my hand and you’re stare into my eyes
You pressed your face closer to mine and the memories begin to pass
Ill never forget you not until I live 
My life is so much harder with out your voice
It’s colder without your advice
I can’t get close enough to love anyone else but you
Because my whole life died with you

How can I love someone who’s gone?
I don’t know how to explain
All I know is that your soul is still with me
I taste the bitter salty tears that roll down my cheeks
I know that if you were here
You’d wipe them off my face with your fingertips

I try to push it out of my way and leave it at the back of my mind
But I cant
How can I forget something?
That meant, no means the world to me

Id give up anything for you to be here again
I am the goofy insecure girl
But with you I felt special in every single way
You told me I was beautiful 

And it reminds me of the days
When we would talk all night and day
I know I’m not perfection but when I stared into you’re eyes
I didn’t need anything just to be by your side
Its tough enough to live without you next to me
I think about you night and day 
I hope and pray you don’t abandon me






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Lets take you home
You’re way to drunk to drive
I sober you up 
And let you take a nap
As you begin to awake
You notice you’re in the bathroom
And I’m lying beside you
The bathtub is filled with hot water
I pick you up by your collar
And you begin to panic
I kneel you 
And pin your hand to your back with my knees
I take the back of your head
And dunk it into the tub
A shriek escapes your lips
And I feel satisfied
I pull your head back up

You’re crying
And holding your face
It beginning to burn
And peel 
I walk towards the sink 
Grab the tube of toothpaste
Throw you on the ground
Hold your hand to your chest
And shove the tube
Down your throat forcefully

Your beginning
To choke
You can scratch my face
And squirm
But you slowly begin to choke
Once the moving stops 
I get up and admire my work
I spit in your face
That’s beginning to turn blue
Grab my car keys 
And leave













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If I screamed at the top of my lungs
Would you hear me?
Would you acknowledge the terror at the back of my throat?
Pumping through my heart
Sending fear into my blood stream

If was drowning before you
Would you save me fro the water slowly filling up my lungs?
Would you be the hand to pull me up?
Or will you be the tide 
That pulls me under

When I’m torn down and defeated
Will you be my savior to pick me up?
And give me the strength I need
To face the world that’s constantly against me
Or will you break me down
Until I’m consumed
By the worms and insects
That roam the earth

Who will help you?
When I’m gone and pushed away 
Into the back of your mind
Where thoughts and memories hide
To later become a blur
And fade away 
Like your compassion and mercy













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The gritty sand in between my toes
Also clung to my tongue

It made a grinding noise
Between my teeth

Giving me a headache 
Making my nose bleed

I feel the blood began to run
Thick, down my lips
And began to drip

Its pleasant sound
Of the droplets pitter-patter 
On the grains of sand
Made me react
I began to wipe away 
The blood from my face
And spit out the taste

The ocean spray remained the same
Except for the saltiness and bitterness
That made its way into my veins

I grind my teeth 
Making a scraping sound
Filling the quite calm air
Reminding me of bones being rubbed down

I walk along the shore and shiver
At the thought of you 

Now that you’re gone
I can’t help but remember 
How much I loved you




















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Dead corpse
Lay in your coffin
Where your body will be consumed
By the maggots and mice
That surround you 

You wont feel a thing
I can promise you that
I can’t say the same
For the critters that
Tare at your flesh
And enjoy your taste
It’s sad to see a vermin go to waste
Even they are more worth it than you










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This will be the last time I ever see your face
I’m leaving here  tonight in hope of fate
And a better place

Ill drive slow so you can see me leave
Like the many times you’ve done to me
Don’t cry doll face
Please don’t
It shouldn’t hurt 
You’ve done this so many times
The only difference is
You’re the only one in love

Begging me to stay
Is such a sweet sight?
To bad my headlights are too bright
Crash into my arms
Drench my sweatshirt in tears
Watch me pull away
With a smile on my face
Ill trace you’re cheeks
With my cold fingers

Ill drive slow so you can see me leave
Like the many times you’ve done to me
Don’t cry doll face
Please don’t
It shouldn’t hurt 
You’ve done this so many times
The only difference is
You’re the only one in love

Grab my arm with fear
That I’m leaving tonight
Dig your fingernails into my skin
Make my flesh sting
But I bet its not going to hurt as much as what I'm going to do tonight
Think of this as a favor that I'm doing you
How can you say you love me?
When you cant do the same for you

Ill drive slow so you can see me leave
Like the many times you’ve done to me
Don’t cry doll face
Please don’t
It shouldn’t hurt 
You’ve done this so many times
The only difference is
You’re the only one in love

It’s a shame doll face
To see you cry in the rain
Now back away from the car door

Ill drive slow so you can see me leave
Like the many times you’ve done to me
Don’t cry doll face
Please don’t
It shouldn’t hurt 
You’ve done this so many times
The only difference is…










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Once upon a time there was love in the air
 Then it took a dark and twisted path to screaming and terror

Bickering became a routine
And physical pain became a constant thing

Until the fear became anger
And control seemed unfair 

They watched as their bones cracked and saw them split
Felt the fragments fly and cleaned up their bloody lips

Then they came to their senses
And tried to mend them with gauze and plaster

The moral of the story is
This love story had no happily ever after










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What's under your ribs, 
Besides lungs and a mass of blood, 
Circulating through your veins? 

 Is it hate or perhaps a massive grudge,
That doesn't let you breathe,
And sends no oxygen to your brain?

Does the sight escape from your green eyes, 
When they roll to the back of your head?
Can your mind lose itself
In emptyness?

How about your heart--
Is it hollow like the rest?
Or is that your chest?
Let's test.

Put your hand 
On your chest
Do you hear the heart below?
Or are your bones all alone?





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